SPINNING ME STUPID
fuck you hero!
I'm supposed to give it all up
for just one moment in your arms
the hero
the man
the next che
the next ghandi
the next who ever the fuck you might be
the next hero
of all our dreams
COME TO SAVE US FROM OUR PATHETIC REALITIES
charismatic
with a touch so soft
a smile so warm
able to work 16 hours a day
six days a week
and still make love like a god
Fuck you hero
I'm supposed to
level myself
prostrate
at your feet
worship you
do me do me
DO ME
next....
fuck you hero
hero worship
I was never into it
did my stint following in mothers steps
a momentary groupie
devastated by fame
living for proximity
to tell me
I'm someone
FUCK YOU HERO
I'm the hero
I'm the hero of my dreams
I'm the hero
up on the horse
facing the foe
that ruins us all
I'm the hero
on my horse
riding with yall
all you men
of myth and fame
all your words and glory
the struggle of all your story
MEN
I've been taught to put above me
on ur horses
singing the charge
counting cou
while women wait at home
with kids and gruel
picking berries
warming sherrry
for the home coming
putting their dreams and talents on hold
supporting you in your endeavor
mrs pollack did she have any other name
and all the others
did they ever exist
shadows in your flame
you with your words and thoughts
and deeds
her pregnant with your seed
waiting by the fire for your return
keeping the money straight and coming in
to fuel your battles and performances
shit on that
what about MY PERFORMANCES
sit your ass down
and support me
gimme, gimme, gimme
your blood and future
so I can go forth and slay golliah, america, godzilla
and make me the hero
so, I can
run the miles
to keep in shape
build the muslces
to kick ass
have the time
to think the thoughts
that change the world
hey, man
you carry the fucking baby
stroke its head to sooth it's crying
as I leave it and you
one more time again
to pursue the challenge
you
do the laundry
clean the cobwebs
warm the bed
for my heroic return
you
spend all your time
and creative energy
chasing the kids around the house
making peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches
for their lunch
feeding the dog
YOU DO IT
you be humble
and thorough
you be humble and homely
as pretty women line up
to touch my hero's hand
to glean just a little light
of my rage and fury
as pretty women
offer themselves as trophies
and delicacies
to tempt my pallat
stroke my hero's vanity
rewards
to gorge in
to peak
the peak
of blood shed
frenzy
to release me
back to exhausted and
normal
a day with the kids
sensitive sex with the wife
who has
of course
remained
celibate, mother mary and matyr
longing for my touch
my return
my success
while I've been so, so long away
always looking to me
with those eyes
filled with
devotion and
gratitude
calling me on my shit
for this I respect HER
she knows me
and I can count on her honesty and
care taking
my risk making
every hero needs
a home to come home to
every hero......................needs
his unsung
MARTHA
FUCK THAT
fuck you hero
get that fucking kid
up off me
and the fucking laundry
I want to be the one to play
the one to fight
the one to bleed
the one with light
to give
to the lines of waiting devas
whose only desire is the touch of my hand
the brush of my lips
on their cheeks
and
FUCK me
all stupid and star struck
all stank with hero worhship
girl,
fuck me
ain't nothing real about it
the attraction
all confused
all messy
and fan based
I don't see clearly
the one before me
its all
tossed with massage oils of glory
no real story
I don't live with the bastard
like you do
put up with his shit
like you do
clean his fucking toilets
listen for god knows how many times this makes
to his
rants and rants and rants
and raves
I don't put up with the shit
you do
girl,
what I think I'm feeling
ain't none of this real
I haven't seen him like you do
all hung over and stinking of bile
curdled and sick on the bathroom floor
odorous with another woman's pussy
and lies to cover
and fuck that!!,
you can have it!!
I haven't seen him like you do
haven't had to live the role you choose
and he hasn't seen me
IN THE MORNING
my hair sticking straight up
my brows unplucked
looking all scarecrow and frantic
girl,
it ain't real
its all from the audience
all from beneath the glorified stage
looking up to see something
bigger, BETTER
than me...
illusion
I don't know him
MR. HERO
I'm just here
star struck and stupid
some teenager waving her panties high over her head
waiting by the stage door
sucking the bouncer's dick
just to get in
and be able to suck hero's dick
give him that quick boost
of power
to see it in his eyes
when he comes
to pretend its mine
for one moment
one second
that's all he'll give
for the reassurance he gets
for the suck on his egodick
notice me, notice me
lil fuck that I am
fuck me silly........
then what
SHIT!
fuck me, girl
I'm full of shit
ain't nothing real about this
and...
fuck you hero,
fuck you!!!!
fuck me with all my dillusions
fantasies and pathetic teenage infatuations
bought and sold by the hype
the package
the shine
fuck that!!!!
fuck the hero worship
all sides of it
women dripping everywhere
home and abroad!!!!!
I'm the hero
I'M THE FUCKING HERO
THE HERO OF MY FUCKING HERO WORSHIPPING DREAMS
let me sling MY panties up on the stage
of my own performance
get my own goddamned attention
and HAVE SOME OF THAT FAME BRUSH OFF ON ME
to make me more than I feel I am
let me
be my own fucking groupie bitch
sucking on my own hero's dick
repeating insatiably
anything, anything!
to be with you hero
for just one moment
just one second
proximity fascination hallucination
let me apologize to my own wife
sitting faithfully, dutifully, guiltily at home
let me say to her...
sorry, girl
I don't live with hero's shit
clean hero's toilets...wipe hero's dick
so sorry.....................to over on what's yours
in reality
IN REALTY
it's a role I don't want
a play I don't seek
from any side
and fuck this sense of powerlessness
that motors it
this helplessness
that makes me need a fucking hero, anyway
fuck my humaness
my goddamned vulnerability
fuck the need
the need to be
a hero
#2
Hero, HERO!!!!
people need heros
heros
to look up to
to stand up and be brave for them
to be an example
to be more than they can be
to manifest what they could never
to go through the pain
and come out unscathed
survivors
to save them from the inevitable
to come back from the dead
with just a quick shot of adrenaline
human flaws and weaknesses transcended
super heros, Jack Bauer's
healing from life taking wounds
in a second
and we need real life hero's
real people to lead us
gomez-pena's making songs of our fears
voicing what we could never find sounds to
making sense of what haunts and elludes us
leyba's, confronting taboos
BOOOOO!!!!!
and miasma's of flesh hysterias
coyotes in the sheep's flesh
human's confronting humans
real hero's
but, none the less
bigger than life
bigger than real
bigger than you
bigger than me
and buffoon heros
like the Tick
all stumbling bumbling
unphased unscathed
innocent, ignorance
wise and foolish
all dumb luck
inhuman luck
that's me
in this fucking hero worship delerium
dumb and where's the luck in it
a woman
vulnerable
trying to find the courage
to stand here
to sustain your gaze
for one instance
and not run screaming
in shame
of my helplessness
related to you, what you do
or don't
related to my powerlessness
in this world
the immensity of it
this life
a small creature in the vastness
ready to bolt
naked
unprotected
bared
waitng for cruxifiction
a human being
standing here
not running screaming inside or out
standing here
biting her lip
bleeding
standing here
not being something else
standing here
exposed
standing here
naked in surrender
trying to connect
with another
human-being
through the haze
the maze
the overwhelming need to be
a super hero, in a suit
so no one will see
the real me
especially not you
#3
to be a hero
is to be
simply honest
real
flawed
to stand it
to suffer, struggle
feel
and not deny it
this takes a hero's courage
all human's are hero's
simply to live through a day
one day to the next
in denial and faith
accidentally finding
strength
a moment of courage
to face themselves
in the immensity
that confronts them
each moment
#4
to my cat
who I rescued from the streets
at four weeks
I'm a hero
she suckles the blanket in my lap
confident of this
Posted and written by:
Coy @
Decoy.com
I'm supposed to give it all up
for just one moment in your arms
the hero
the man
the next che
the next ghandi
the next who ever the fuck you might be
the next hero
of all our dreams
COME TO SAVE US FROM OUR PATHETIC REALITIES
charismatic
with a touch so soft
a smile so warm
able to work 16 hours a day
six days a week
and still make love like a god
Fuck you hero
I'm supposed to
level myself
prostrate
at your feet
worship you
do me do me
DO ME
next....
fuck you hero
hero worship
I was never into it
did my stint following in mothers steps
a momentary groupie
devastated by fame
living for proximity
to tell me
I'm someone
FUCK YOU HERO
I'm the hero
I'm the hero of my dreams
I'm the hero
up on the horse
facing the foe
that ruins us all
I'm the hero
on my horse
riding with yall
all you men
of myth and fame
all your words and glory
the struggle of all your story
MEN
I've been taught to put above me
on ur horses
singing the charge
counting cou
while women wait at home
with kids and gruel
picking berries
warming sherrry
for the home coming
putting their dreams and talents on hold
supporting you in your endeavor
mrs pollack did she have any other name
and all the others
did they ever exist
shadows in your flame
you with your words and thoughts
and deeds
her pregnant with your seed
waiting by the fire for your return
keeping the money straight and coming in
to fuel your battles and performances
shit on that
what about MY PERFORMANCES
sit your ass down
and support me
gimme, gimme, gimme
your blood and future
so I can go forth and slay golliah, america, godzilla
and make me the hero
so, I can
run the miles
to keep in shape
build the muslces
to kick ass
have the time
to think the thoughts
that change the world
hey, man
you carry the fucking baby
stroke its head to sooth it's crying
as I leave it and you
one more time again
to pursue the challenge
you
do the laundry
clean the cobwebs
warm the bed
for my heroic return
you
spend all your time
and creative energy
chasing the kids around the house
making peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches
for their lunch
feeding the dog
YOU DO IT
you be humble
and thorough
you be humble and homely
as pretty women line up
to touch my hero's hand
to glean just a little light
of my rage and fury
as pretty women
offer themselves as trophies
and delicacies
to tempt my pallat
stroke my hero's vanity
rewards
to gorge in
to peak
the peak
of blood shed
frenzy
to release me
back to exhausted and
normal
a day with the kids
sensitive sex with the wife
who has
of course
remained
celibate, mother mary and matyr
longing for my touch
my return
my success
while I've been so, so long away
always looking to me
with those eyes
filled with
devotion and
gratitude
calling me on my shit
for this I respect HER
she knows me
and I can count on her honesty and
care taking
my risk making
every hero needs
a home to come home to
every hero.....................
his unsung
MARTHA
FUCK THAT
fuck you hero
get that fucking kid
up off me
and the fucking laundry
I want to be the one to play
the one to fight
the one to bleed
the one with light
to give
to the lines of waiting devas
whose only desire is the touch of my hand
the brush of my lips
on their cheeks
and
FUCK me
all stupid and star struck
all stank with hero worhship
girl,
fuck me
ain't nothing real about it
the attraction
all confused
all messy
and fan based
I don't see clearly
the one before me
its all
tossed with massage oils of glory
no real story
I don't live with the bastard
like you do
put up with his shit
like you do
clean his fucking toilets
listen for god knows how many times this makes
to his
rants and rants and rants
and raves
I don't put up with the shit
you do
girl,
what I think I'm feeling
ain't none of this real
I haven't seen him like you do
all hung over and stinking of bile
curdled and sick on the bathroom floor
odorous with another woman's pussy
and lies to cover
and fuck that!!,
you can have it!!
I haven't seen him like you do
haven't had to live the role you choose
and he hasn't seen me
IN THE MORNING
my hair sticking straight up
my brows unplucked
looking all scarecrow and frantic
girl,
it ain't real
its all from the audience
all from beneath the glorified stage
looking up to see something
bigger, BETTER
than me...
illusion
I don't know him
MR. HERO
I'm just here
star struck and stupid
some teenager waving her panties high over her head
waiting by the stage door
sucking the bouncer's dick
just to get in
and be able to suck hero's dick
give him that quick boost
of power
to see it in his eyes
when he comes
to pretend its mine
for one moment
one second
that's all he'll give
for the reassurance he gets
for the suck on his egodick
notice me, notice me
lil fuck that I am
fuck me silly........
then what
SHIT!
fuck me, girl
I'm full of shit
ain't nothing real about this
and...
fuck you hero,
fuck you!!!!
fuck me with all my dillusions
fantasies and pathetic teenage infatuations
bought and sold by the hype
the package
the shine
fuck that!!!!
fuck the hero worship
all sides of it
women dripping everywhere
home and abroad!!!!!
I'm the hero
I'M THE FUCKING HERO
THE HERO OF MY FUCKING HERO WORSHIPPING DREAMS
let me sling MY panties up on the stage
of my own performance
get my own goddamned attention
and HAVE SOME OF THAT FAME BRUSH OFF ON ME
to make me more than I feel I am
let me
be my own fucking groupie bitch
sucking on my own hero's dick
repeating insatiably
anything, anything!
to be with you hero
for just one moment
just one second
proximity fascination hallucination
let me apologize to my own wife
sitting faithfully, dutifully, guiltily at home
let me say to her...
sorry, girl
I don't live with hero's shit
clean hero's toilets...wipe hero's dick
so sorry.....................to over on what's yours
in reality
IN REALTY
it's a role I don't want
a play I don't seek
from any side
and fuck this sense of powerlessness
that motors it
this helplessness
that makes me need a fucking hero, anyway
fuck my humaness
my goddamned vulnerability
fuck the need
the need to be
a hero
#2
Hero, HERO!!!!
people need heros
heros
to look up to
to stand up and be brave for them
to be an example
to be more than they can be
to manifest what they could never
to go through the pain
and come out unscathed
survivors
to save them from the inevitable
to come back from the dead
with just a quick shot of adrenaline
human flaws and weaknesses transcended
super heros, Jack Bauer's
healing from life taking wounds
in a second
and we need real life hero's
real people to lead us
gomez-pena's making songs of our fears
voicing what we could never find sounds to
making sense of what haunts and elludes us
leyba's, confronting taboos
BOOOOO!!!!!
and miasma's of flesh hysterias
coyotes in the sheep's flesh
human's confronting humans
real hero's
but, none the less
bigger than life
bigger than real
bigger than you
bigger than me
and buffoon heros
like the Tick
all stumbling bumbling
unphased unscathed
innocent, ignorance
wise and foolish
all dumb luck
inhuman luck
that's me
in this fucking hero worship delerium
dumb and where's the luck in it
a woman
vulnerable
trying to find the courage
to stand here
to sustain your gaze
for one instance
and not run screaming
in shame
of my helplessness
related to you, what you do
or don't
related to my powerlessness
in this world
the immensity of it
this life
a small creature in the vastness
ready to bolt
naked
unprotected
bared
waitng for cruxifiction
a human being
standing here
not running screaming inside or out
standing here
biting her lip
bleeding
standing here
not being something else
standing here
exposed
standing here
naked in surrender
trying to connect
with another
human-being
through the haze
the maze
the overwhelming need to be
a super hero, in a suit
so no one will see
the real me
especially not you
#3
to be a hero
is to be
simply honest
real
flawed
to stand it
to suffer, struggle
feel
and not deny it
this takes a hero's courage
all human's are hero's
simply to live through a day
one day to the next
in denial and faith
accidentally finding
strength
a moment of courage
to face themselves
in the immensity
that confronts them
each moment
#4
to my cat
who I rescued from the streets
at four weeks
I'm a hero
she suckles the blanket in my lap
confident of this
Posted and written by:
Coy @
Decoy.com
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